i have issues

Insensitivity
Due to my extreme emotionally unstable yesterday, so many things popped out in my head.i was thinking about those who were being insensitive over certain things.and to my dissapointment those people are whom i call friends.i hate this kind of people.u see, when u r being too friendly with people,they calls u a bitch but when u stands up for urself they said u r trying to be smart.i am in this situation where friends among me make fun of each other.and i DONT mind with that.but we are also colleagues,working in the same company,go for lunch together and we hang out together.a group of among us is working in the same department,one of the an utmost important departmant in the company and they hardly have the same understanding.

FACE it here people,at work we have to be professional.pls pls pls diffrentiate work and personal.i totally disagree about underestimating other people.most of the colleagues i hang out with are among the executive level and above(asst manager,HODs).since we are used to make fun of each other,this habit have been carried out on working hours as well.AND one thing i hate about these insensitive people, that they tend to underestimate u as a low level worker and u totally have no right to protest as they'll label u as a whiner.where is the justice in that?what is wrong being a clerk?im a clerk myself and i felt insulted..those who were insulting u not just anyone,they're close friends.

Betrayal
what wud u feel when someone close,very close to u betrayed u?what wud u do?i actually experienced this situation once.this incident gives a big impact in my life (well as for this moment) as sometimes when i sit alone i often reminisce the past.i can say its damn fucked up.i hate to accept the fact that someone close (used to)was actually backstabbing me.it hurts u know..until now.sometimes u jz cant get over it..when u used to trust someone,and she messed up n u realised u shouldnt be trusting anyone again.i will never let bad things happen to me twice...i will never let the same person or anyone make me feel the same way i felt.this goes for relationship and friendship.but i know family never betray :)

LOSERS AND SON OF A BITCH
now lets talk about this oh-i-am-the-most-wanted-dude-on-earth kind of guy and those who are married but tend to play around looking for other women.i mean if u were planning to tie a knot with the girl,then it's fine.BUT u only look for them for the sake of fun.i mean what if the same situation happen to the guys.what would they feel?betrayed?sad?..yeah same goes to we women,whom u happily make love with,let ur sperm all swim inside us and deliver ur babies,taking care of u and the children and this is what we women always,always get.women have a very sensitive heart,appreciate them.take care of us and love us like no other.i am very sensitive when it comes to this kind of betrayal.whats worst,when u son of a bitch,get caught by ur wives or gfs.and lets list 5 of the most top fucking lame excuses

1. 'She's just a friend.a normal girl friend' - wtf
2. 'Its a casual date.no feelings involve' - wtf
3. 'I was just playing around.I dont love her' - wtf
4. 'We were discussing.Business matters'- wtf
5. 'Its out nature.We get attacted by the beauty' - wtf

i would like to list more but i think above are the most popular reasons blurt out by these male gender.why would they do that?if u know that its not the time to have family,to commit and to break hearts,then dont get married or have a relationship.True?Male are VERY selfish.when it comes them everything have reasons behind the action but when it comes to us,explainations are not acceptable.where is the justice in that?im not against them,im just pointing out what i think is right.like it or not this is the fact.

btw..i took some time to finish my entries because i dont have my laptop at this moment.

Be Mine

i just bought 2 books this afternoon to kill the boredom.besides i wasnt in the mood of reading or doing assignment or any revision on my studies.BUT i have 2 quizes coming up tomorrow's evening..im not quite happy about this new blog as i dont really have the mood to blurt out things..tp nak share some of the books i've read.

i read this book about few months ago..i havent finish reading this book tho but its all about letting go.how bad u wanted to let go but u cudnt.this book tells u how to do it..its more on motivation kinda book.i think its good but i failed to do as the book says.

PS I LOVE YOU

i loooooooove this book.owh..the second pic taken from the movie recently released.i prefered the book than the movie tho.seriously, i never shed a tear reading novels...ever!be it english or malay novel but this book got me pretty emotional.i can actually feel her especially when she is trying so hard to overcome her husband's death.imagine u have to go ur future days with ur most loved ones.haih..being too emotional already. i highly recommend this book rather than the movie.thought the movie wud be a blast.i love the feeling when it comes to her opening the next letter and everytime she misses him too much.hahaha i can actually imagine im being her..wtf

i bought this book today and i was attracted to the synopsis that said if u live with ur husband for more tha 15 years and bored with the same sex life,would u turn for strangers that drop notes for you says' be mine'.hmmm interesting huh...i havent read the entire book.read few pages but i hardly understand the english been use in the book.see i told ya my english is worsen.wtf

This book....also attracted by the synopsis.i ve read this also a few pages due to my tight schedule.the beginning was quite ok.wait till i finish reading it then i'll edit whether recommended to read or not to.

i wanna read this book:-

another book by Cecilia Ahern.i saw this new front cover in Popular.thought of buying but at that time i dont have sufficient money.but im still looking for the available copy.dammit

Thaipusam

Inspired by someone close, i decided to start a blog again this time.lets wish people a very happy new year!!!(tho it was long ago) anyway...talk about new year,i was thinking about the resolution that i ever had before.i have none really..i don't really pay attention to this resolution-thing since forever.i mean why do you have to set a date to aim when u can achieve it whenever u want rite?that is my point of view la..but lets change some stuff this year....



2008

• to at least lose 5 kg (don't laugh.i gained weight drastically last year)


• to be less mean to people


• to appreciate my family and spend time with them often


• to exercise (kickboxing,sit ups etc)


• to start working efficiently again (i just realise my performance was verrrrrry sucks last year)


• to earn more money


• to at least study and achieve higher point in future semester


• to stop being too nice to people


• to curse less


• to be a grateful person


• not to spend money like...water??(adoii i try alrdy la..kenot leh)


• to start trusting those people do deserve the trust...everyone deserve 2nd chances rite?

i just dont understand those people who illegally do drugs?i mean seriously,when u know drugs cud harm u slow..why wud u be so stupid to consume it too often.ok..some might think i same goes to smoking...but..but smoking will only caused ur lungs get rot..it will not effect ur brain.its diff u know...

im used to not having u around..im used to it already =)...