i have issues

Insensitivity
Due to my extreme emotionally unstable yesterday, so many things popped out in my head.i was thinking about those who were being insensitive over certain things.and to my dissapointment those people are whom i call friends.i hate this kind of people.u see, when u r being too friendly with people,they calls u a bitch but when u stands up for urself they said u r trying to be smart.i am in this situation where friends among me make fun of each other.and i DONT mind with that.but we are also colleagues,working in the same company,go for lunch together and we hang out together.a group of among us is working in the same department,one of the an utmost important departmant in the company and they hardly have the same understanding.

FACE it here people,at work we have to be professional.pls pls pls diffrentiate work and personal.i totally disagree about underestimating other people.most of the colleagues i hang out with are among the executive level and above(asst manager,HODs).since we are used to make fun of each other,this habit have been carried out on working hours as well.AND one thing i hate about these insensitive people, that they tend to underestimate u as a low level worker and u totally have no right to protest as they'll label u as a whiner.where is the justice in that?what is wrong being a clerk?im a clerk myself and i felt insulted..those who were insulting u not just anyone,they're close friends.

Betrayal
what wud u feel when someone close,very close to u betrayed u?what wud u do?i actually experienced this situation once.this incident gives a big impact in my life (well as for this moment) as sometimes when i sit alone i often reminisce the past.i can say its damn fucked up.i hate to accept the fact that someone close (used to)was actually backstabbing me.it hurts u know..until now.sometimes u jz cant get over it..when u used to trust someone,and she messed up n u realised u shouldnt be trusting anyone again.i will never let bad things happen to me twice...i will never let the same person or anyone make me feel the same way i felt.this goes for relationship and friendship.but i know family never betray :)

LOSERS AND SON OF A BITCH
now lets talk about this oh-i-am-the-most-wanted-dude-on-earth kind of guy and those who are married but tend to play around looking for other women.i mean if u were planning to tie a knot with the girl,then it's fine.BUT u only look for them for the sake of fun.i mean what if the same situation happen to the guys.what would they feel?betrayed?sad?..yeah same goes to we women,whom u happily make love with,let ur sperm all swim inside us and deliver ur babies,taking care of u and the children and this is what we women always,always get.women have a very sensitive heart,appreciate them.take care of us and love us like no other.i am very sensitive when it comes to this kind of betrayal.whats worst,when u son of a bitch,get caught by ur wives or gfs.and lets list 5 of the most top fucking lame excuses

1. 'She's just a friend.a normal girl friend' - wtf
2. 'Its a casual date.no feelings involve' - wtf
3. 'I was just playing around.I dont love her' - wtf
4. 'We were discussing.Business matters'- wtf
5. 'Its out nature.We get attacted by the beauty' - wtf

i would like to list more but i think above are the most popular reasons blurt out by these male gender.why would they do that?if u know that its not the time to have family,to commit and to break hearts,then dont get married or have a relationship.True?Male are VERY selfish.when it comes them everything have reasons behind the action but when it comes to us,explainations are not acceptable.where is the justice in that?im not against them,im just pointing out what i think is right.like it or not this is the fact.

btw..i took some time to finish my entries because i dont have my laptop at this moment.