How do you like me now?

2 days ago i went to the doctor..i am not feeling well..i dont feel good.the doctor told me im just fine...but deep inside..i know thats wrong..i know i'm sick.i know im ill.i know im not fine..but then again he said im all good and so i began to question myself what went wrong.perhaps ive been thinking too much..perhaps im lost..perhaps im down..perhaps i feel bad or maybe i am sad..coz these days have been rough.these days have been hard.i looked in the mirror..i couldnt believe my eyes..i hardly know myself..where was once this fine girl..where was once this honest smile..and all i see now is a broken soul and a plain empty smile.a smile made to mask the sorrow.a smile faked to conceal my tears inside.but then ive learnt my biggest lesson in life.life isnt always a bed of roses.life isnt all about happy endings.at times everything u want in life isnt everything u need.at times everything u need isnt everything u want in life..and at times nothing answers everything...and everything doesnt answer anything u want at times.i wish i could bear that in me.and i wish i could say this more often..'goodbye sadness,hello happiness'............