Fucked up month

I DONT HAVE ANY LAPTOP ANYMORE
BLOODY HELL!

Excuse my bloody bad words will be used in this entry.because i am super fucked up.if u have problem with it u may click on 'x' button on the top of ur window.thanks hell fucking much,SON!

God hates me this month.i've been through such bloody days.my dad sent my laptop to his friend to find out what went wrong with it since i couldnt switch it on months ago (due to my laziness br skang aku tau bukan battery nye yg rosak.fucker).and know what?turned out my laptop screwed the whole fucking thing.

dad: kwn abah kate laptop ni dah rosak abis.motherboard rosak tade spareparts and also the bios
me:bloody hell!

i feel betrayed!by friends again..motherfucker!i shouldnt be so nice to people.please take note that i am not going to treat u people that nice anymore.

i went out with effie the other day and we laughed about our old days love stories.and even when we were in high school ponteng2 class.hahaha it was so fun.i talked to her about my feelings and i felt a lot better.she knew whole lot things about me.

i miss him :( i miss talking to him the way we used to.oi i fucking miss u la!!!

i just realised my lil bro and sisters has grown up.my lil sisters are now begin to tell stories about their bfs :) i feel old.bloody hell!as usual my lil bro been changing gf every now and then.but me n him have a talk last night im glad he is now taking his study seriously and he is talking about the future.about completing his diploma and start to look for serious relationship.awwww my lil bro dah besar siot.but not having them in the house makes me feel so lonely.i mean i still have my parents but i dont tell things to my parents that much.we kinda have finacial problem.dad has been transferred to wilayah and we r moving to our house in shah alam.the thing is,we dont really have that much money to get house renovated.as in 60K?bloody hell expensive,fucker!

the other day,i was trying to have conversation with my director.BUT i slipped my fucking tounge.i've tried,in japanese mind u.it is so hard and i feel stupid.i used to have this ability to speak japanese fluently,or i thought so..but this time i barely remember how to speak the easiest way of communication.and my colleague make me realise that i have a problem with my pronouncation.they bloody laugh at me.kanasai.my english is getting worst.damn worst.i feel stupid trying to memorize the words everytime i need to work on my reports.hell fuck.i even made few attempts to translate malay words to english...fuck!that bad u see.i should start watching japanese drama and english movies again..haih

i feel relieved =)