One hell of a long post

i know i know i was being a lazy ass to update cz i couldnt find the right time for blogging.been very busy lately.wit works,study and exams this end of month.im dead.yday i sat for business math tests,3 test that is.phewwww...was hard.one of the hard times in life.god knows how much i hate math and accounts or anything related to calculation.because i tend to forget the formula and having difficulties in solving those x,y kuasa 80 ribu la ape la...i hate it.i never actually pass my math & account papers with flying colors~ aku benci sial.so u know what i did last night?i copied my classmates answers.and my lecturer dont mind hahaha i love my math's lecturer.she's 22 years old..gile gempak.anyway,i 'll update u wit whatever happen to my for the past 1 month.dont be so shock la ok.hehehe

19092008

i was involved in an accident around 4pm.i was with my officer went out WITH permission from the executives.out for bank and mengular sekejap2 to pick up my online clothes that i booked the other day.when i was driving,wani asked me why did i buy a white MNG tank top (the fact that im wearing tudung la of cz) and was asking if i were about to repeat the old self by going to the clubs.and i told her yes.cz i was stressed out with my works and study.i need a break.i cant have my island getaway so i decided to pay my visit to clubs when i feel like it.i drove back to sec16.sampai roundabout as usual,give signal and masuk lane la.i dont know it was me not be able to see other cars or i was careless,a car knocked me from right and i drifted(mcm kt dlm too fast too furious,sec16 drift version)...so kete kene langgar and melingtang tgh2 jalan.sik baik takene sambar ngan lorry ke bus ke.other cars slow down and i nearly hit the devider.sib baik la aku brake sbb kalo aku tak brake mmg aku damasuk longkang n aku akan beraya dlm kubur.seriously i was shocked when it happened.smpi i stared at the longkang n the stering until my officer called my name to make sure i was okay.fortunately,im fine and my officer's armed ade la melecet skit but thank God we were okay.and biasa la pullover on the other side of the road to tgk2 kete and cite2 psl accident dgn pelanggar kete.

so we decided to lodge a police report.it was my 1st time doing the report and my 2nd time of accident this year..or was it my 3rd time?cant remember.susah jgk rupe nye nak buat report ni and its a waste of time la kan.its tiring and sgt suspen ok.kau tgk pacik2 police semua nya muka serious dgn misai2 yg tebal tu kan..cuak gak la nakasi statement.






eventually,i was called to give my statement n kasitau how did i happened.so akukasitau la...mane tau die kate tu salah aku sbb i was supposed to berenti seblm masuk roundabt.eh i did la...ah sukati kau je ckp aku salah.that chinese guy said he signaled but i didnt see him coming also.aihhh..tp walaubagaimanapun,tade sape yg kene sama rm300(gila mahal aku da cuak sbb bapak aku yg akan byr)..masing2 settle sndiri.

one thing bila accident,1st aku akan call my dad.and not mom.sbb apa?kete tu atas nama mak aku,n bila die tau accident...kau tau la perempuan,emosi kan.kang aku sentap ngan mak aku tak best pulak kan..masam2 muka byk2 hari,kan dajadi anak derhaka.

uihh panjang la pulak kan post accident ni.baiklah sampai disini shj..tanye la kalo ade pe2 kau nak tau...

26092008
my 23rd birthday.

00:16 1st wish from fina..awek CJ.
22:24 1st present fm mom.a gold tudung brooch.natau kenapa?sbb all this while leher aku akan melecet dan kdg2 berdarah sbb guna silver/plastic pins utk pakai tudung.dan ianya membuatkan leher aku tersgt la hodoh.aku allergic dgn brg2 tiruan.hahahaha riak sgt x?aku tatipu nih...kalo aku pakai rantai yg diperbuat dr silver,xsampai 5 min naik merah2...and aku terpaksa berlakon jd monyet.aku akan garu sana sini smpi merah2 smpi darah2...jijik kan?sbb tu aku tasuke pki accesories.rantai ke,cincin ke,bracelet ke...sbb nnt aku kene letak ubat.smpi skang aku asik pki this gold necklace yg aku pakai dr kecik.tapenah menyusahkan aku.masa aku dpt this pin emas kan,luka tu masih lg melecet.and the next day bila aku pakai,terus x gatal dan terus kering luka dan terus baik dlm masa beberapa jam.magic kan?hehehe aku rase aku mmg ada darah diraja la...i long for gold all the way.silver x main brader ;p




00:13 2nd present. a gym ball from my sister :D aku tersgt suka this gift.because i used to play with the gym ball masa aku pegi gym,dulu la kan.thought of buying tapi kau tau la aku kan....jumpa barang menarik semua nak beli...so terbeli brg lain.i thank her for buying the gym ball for me so i wont be a lazy bump to do sit ups everyday.sbb aku kene org pegang kaki aku utk sit ups,leg rise n back rise.

18:30break fast with nonee and semah: so i was supposed to go for business math class.tp nak buka puasa jugak wlupon tapuasa.semah n nonee ajak aku pegi buka puasa kat plaza masalam.before that we go around that area to look for a place to break fast tp cam semua penuh.da akhir2 puasa semua da malas namasak kat umah.last2 skali they decided to buka puasa at pelita plaza masalam.after few rounds,i started to get annoyed.when we got down the car,semah n nonee nak pegi mana tah sama2 ank suruh aku cari tmpt order dulu la ape la..aku cam hangin gak la...then try to cari table kosong.unfortunately full.so aku call la..takan nak lepak pizza ke kfc tabest.so settle at starbucks...berbuka kat starbucks best woo..kosong je.sukati kau la nak sap okok dulu ke x..but of course aku muslimah yg berbudi takan buat bende tabaik kat situ hehehe so semah pun sampai la...aku pilih la tmpt yg aku slalu duduk...then budak ni nak kasi aku hangin lg nak tukar2 tmpt.da kenape aku pon tatau.so lps argue a bit then decided to move to the paling hujung table.ordered and talked a bit.nonee out of no where tetibe je da ade kat situ.

so mcm biasa la kan...gossip2 mengumpat2 n all...mkn chicken cajun dome ke bende tah then after a while they switch off the fan.keluar la satu mamat ni bwk cake.aku tabajet la mende tu utk aku as there were other ppl yg mkn kat situ as well.smpi la die letak atas meja aku and sang happy birthday..oh br aku tau it was a surprise for me.it was really a surprise sbb aku tak jangka pun there will be any celebration.bcz its not a tradition in my family to celebrate bdays.so wasnt expected any.i thank them for the cake and make few wishes.it was a great moment for them to see me fall for their tricks.i was touched to tell the truth.lps tu mcm biasa sesi suap menyuap dan memberi ucapan.i fetched them home and headed to port klang

21:00 i reached fie's house.there will be a after graduation bbq party for phynie she said.so i got there and fie wasnt home.phynie said fetching mom frm work.she was preparing stuffs for bbq.and i was in front of tv trying to watch every channel.sbb mlm tu semua channel boring.jenguk2 her to see what else can be done.i asked her where r all her frens since the bbq meant for her graduation wat...she said no one is invited.only for family.after a while we cucuk2 the chicken wings,crab fillet,corns,pineapples and fishballs.after bbq-ed dip into a melt choc..heaven im telling ya..then after tht fie reached home.still we were fooling around with the camera and eat like ba alip ba ya.then fie asked me to post,so i did and when i turn around,phynie come to me with a cake :) again i was surprised.byk nye surprise for me arini hahaha last time when we were in high school,whenever we did bday surprises,the bday girl will have to remove all candles using her mouth and one babi-est person ever mesti push her head to the cake.and there were golddust all over hahaha but this time i remove the candle mcm org normal buat la.and we ate like the biggest babi ever.habis i tell u.and after tht we had camwhoring sessions.and was on the road bcz i need to smoke after meal hahaha thats about it.next post : RAYA 2008

i have a wonderful friends~

sorry la it was long cz i delayed for so many weeks.tanak baca pun tape sbnr nye hahaha

Haha kena marah x update blog

hahaha sabar2...aku tgh stone rokok ni.dan sehari setengah tatido nih...when im back aku akan update korang dgn mcm2 drama dlm hidup aku.tgh kumpul gmbr ni brader.kang kate blog aku bosan plak..lg2 farra ni..ade je nak complain.(eh farra ade ke kau ckp?hahaha)

queen tatum : gimme ur email address to add u in fb la..i only managed to get ur daughter la..btw she's adorable la..kasi pinjam 2-3 hari bole? :p

Selamat Hari Raya

i actually got few more post in draft.its just im too lazy to update.after raya will be posting what happen to me for the past week.accident...birthday....fucked up situation.

anyway,
i take this opportunity to wish everyone Selamat Hari Raya and Maaf Zahir dan Batin (tho i dont really know my readers except for farra and N)

- mintak maap la kalo terkasar bahasa *which is always*
- mintak maap kalo terkutuk dan tercarut
- mintak maap kalo tertulis psl korang in my entries *korang bkn tau pun haha*
- mintak maap kalo aku ni perangai nye cam hanjeng sket towards ppl around me
- mintak maap kalo aku ter..ter lalu terterus terang and termarah xtentu psl

aih byk lg la..pendek2 sudey,mintak maap la ye.kalo ade duit raya lebey tolong kasi aku :D

to Farra : aku akan tuntut duit raya ya
to N : kau dtg sini Nov kan?aku da siap2kan perut utk melantak cam ba alip ba ya
to Sis Tatum : no duit raya for me? i belum kawin la hehehe :D
to stalkers & haters : bwk2 la insap dan cuba jgn benci aku sbb tade ape yg nak dibencikan pon. and stalkers,sabar ye.aku akan update lepas raya dan kau bole baca hahaha but ntg u can find here as evidence pon.

SELAMAT HARI RAYA PEOPLE :D

Fasting Month

my close friends know i never like anything to do with coconut
be it the serunding,santan,the gulai or anything
like previous raya,my family n relatives wud go for rendang,ketupat,sate to name a few of their favs
but i'd go for nasik dagang.yummy bebeh
sbb ape?semua benda tu ada santan n kelapa la ape la
tabole blah siot

TETAPI....

hari ni..im craving for ketupat palas & kari ayam
tiba2 je...aku tapernah pun tau nama2 ketupat
and im nvr a fan of curry
except for one curry..sardine curry,prepared by my mom ONLY
okay,so me n my friend headed to SACC to look for ketupat palas
i bought jz 3 cz i know i wudnt eat much
disbbkan tiada kari ayam,i choosed rendang ayam instead
disbbkan perut aku dah pedih cam haram,aku mkn dlm kete *ye betul aku tak puasa*
rasa dia ok la..cuma mcm berlemak sgt,dan rasa kelapa sgt
ketupat palas ni rase mcm lemang eh?

dan ptg ni,makna nye at this moment
aku beli nasik,telur ikan,baby kailan dan AIR KELAPA*org buka aku pon buka la hahaha*
tgk tgk tgk..aku selalu nya akan cukup mengelak apa2 yg berkenaan dgn kelapa
today is very weird..sgt2 pelik
i hope it wont continue
because setiap kali aku mkn benda yg berasaskan kelapa aku akan muntah dgn teruk
lg satu,benda2 berasaskan kelapa ni bukan ke cpt basi?huh! aku xsuka

lps bebuka ni,at this moment jugak,
blm smpi 10min aku lps mkn aku suda muntah aihh..
betapa pepet kan?
sakit perut pulak tu
tu la lain kali xblh mkn jgn gatal nk mkn..
im off to get my ciggie break and continue with my ARMY FIGHT
im close to bring this chillin guy down

ps: Queen Tatum i still cant read ur blog.add me rucchi.ruchiano@yahoo.com
pps: im having choc festival afterwards all by myself.be jealous.heading to sunway for subway n j.co.haha im getting really fat during fasting month.

Tagged lagi

1) What is the most important thing in your life?
Most important thing?family bole masukkan x?sbb most important family la...and to respect each other.sbb aku agak allergic dgn org yg tareti nak respect org lain nih..esp the not-so-close frens..hmm

2) What is the last thing that you bought with your own money?
my own money? BVlgari Pour Homme Soir :)

3) Where do you wish to get married?
in my parents house.with family and relatives and close friends.i'd prefer a simple and memorable one.

4) How old do you think you will be permanently owned by your love?
aku tatau nak jwb la ni...

5) Are you in love?
not in love definately.i like being single.few crush maybe hahaha *ayat bajet sndiri hot*

6) Where was the last restaurant you had dinner?
break fast with yana n semah at Pizza Hut.had carbonara and island supreme pizza babe.marvellous.i love good food *this why im fat fat fat fat*

7) Name the latest book that you bought?
None recently.but the last one was 'thanks for the memories' by cecelia ahern

8)What is your full name?
fairuz binti murtadza. *i dont like it when ppl spell it wrong.fairus la,fariuz la,farus,fariz,faiz.haih mcm2 la org skrg nih*

9) Do you prefer your mother or father?
hmmm tough choice.im close with both.mom to manja with.i ask dad for opinion and to voice my dissatisfaction(not towards him tho..towards other ppl) but i prefer both

10) Name a person that you really wish to meet in real life for the first time.
it might be a lil poyo but i really wish i cud meet Nabi Muhammas S.A.W. so he guide me to be better.not that no one ever guide me la..but u get my drift :) andddd Nakata Hidetoshi and also ARASHI members and also Won Bin...*byk tape kan? ;p*

11) Christina or Britney?
I dont really fancy both.but i like some of their songs.

12) Do you do your own laundry?
Err...supposed so.but normally my sisters or mom will do that for me.cz im busy maaa hahaha

13) The most exciting place you want to go?
at this moment?a trip to Koh Samui.relaxing places.

14) Hugs or kisses?
i'd prefer hugs :)

15) Point out 5 things about the person who tagged you
Ampunnn N kalo salah
1) i never met her before but wud loooove to meet her in person :)
2) she's a degree holder. law plak tu *aku diploma pun xlepas T__T*
3) a nice person
4) she loves travelling (?) haha sbb aku byk nmpk gmbr die ke merata dunia
5) good sense of humour :)

16)8 things I am passionate about :

1) Kickboxing2)

2)Good food

3) Islands

4) Street fashion *aku suka je.i dont do street fashion tho*

5) Languages. Japanese in particular

6) Perfumes :)

7) Books

8) Family and close friends

17)8 things I say too often:

1) cam harammmm

2) gampang tau x???

3) aiyo cannot go la

4) helloooooo(bimbo type hahaha)

5) babi babi babiiiiii

6) pehal lu bro???

7) aihhh nape saje kau nih

8) *being sarcastic...*.......HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

18)4 books I’ve read recently:

1) Remember me by Sophie Kinsella

2) Thanks for the Memories by Cecelia Ahern

3) Can you keep a Secret by Sophie Kinsella

4) Be Mine by...xigt la dow

19)8 songs I could listen to over and over again

1) Bella Luna by Jason Mraz

2) Beautiful Dreamer by GLAY

3) However by GLAY

4) Aitai Kimochi by GLAY

5) Hey There Delilah by Plain White T's

6) Legend of Boo by C.Loco feat Ukiko

7) Everyday i love you less and less by Kaiser Chiefs

8) Hapus Aku by Nidji

20)8 things I learned last year:

1) That i can never please everybody

2) Not everybody like everybody

3) I should get some professional help

4) There are people who dont bother to care about other people's feelings.Ugly

5) The evil side of me is stronger than my angelic side wtf

6) I should never interfere in any of my friend's relationship no matter how sad their love stories are.

7) There are 2-face-bitch among your friends :) Be aware

8) To love myself and get rid of the low self esteem

Break Fast

berbuka dgn nonee arini..disbbkan we both mcm tade kehidupan we headed to Plaza Masalam.berborak dan kurangkan gossip.talked most about our boring lives.i had these

tempting tak?hahaha mkn nye agak sikit la kan..isap rokok yg byk..sap okok smpi rase cam nak temuntah..now back in the office doing ntg.cz im not comfortable using my dad's pc to update entries everyday.damn all of sudden blogging becoming so addictive hahaha.

yesterday,i had my mandarin test.aiyoo..i knew abt the test a week earlier tapi tu la kan...cam kwn aku kate la...kalo study tu bkn fairuz la nama nye..n i swear its not something to be proud of.aku tasuke nak study awal2.bukan nye masuk pale otak pon.so test started and i tried my best answering every question.i can understand mandarin but not reading them.same la cam japanese pon.because my effective way of studying by listening.bukan membaca.bole?haha so it was a bit confusing.sempat la pulak kan sms fie to ask about some words...aku main tibai je..adoii carry marks tinggi tu bai...30% je for final.tak menangis kau?cis..i shudve score on that paper.but its a lot easier if i go for japanese.haya said its easy for me to pass on japanese bcz its too easy.senang pon tapi cam aku rase semenjak dua menjak ni kan bhs jepon aku kan mcm da atas2 air,agak susah gak kot.but whats the point learning something u already know kan.better learn smtg new.tp on this 4th sem,aku rase pointer aku akan jatuh merundum.bcz i got this bloody business math and executive note taking yg cam babi susah.other than that, mandarin n agama.senang la sikit kot.i hope i wont repeat any paper la kan...sbb akan menyusahkan aku kalo class clash nnt.cam haram to face it.esp sem ni agak demoralise disbbkan aku tabole nak amik paper BEL.paper yg tersgt senang bole terkebelakang dr org lain kan..ni semua kepalatan 2 sem yg lps..aihhhh

ape saje la yg aku membebel ni...saje rase nak membebel.balik umah awal bukan bole buat ape pon.sahur pagi td...aku menghabiskan seperiuk nasik (aku tatipu..mmg aku yg habiskan dgn 3 kali mkn) dgn memakan drummet dan singgang shj.wahahaha memang bulat lg la aku bulan ni...hajat dihati nak kurus (kurus ke?haha)...tape la..mom's cooking mmg hard to resist la..mcm satu kerugian kalo ditolak..huh..ape la aku ckp mcm org tapenah dpt mknan ni..anyway...sape2 yg tade facebook,jom la join fb.best dow..nnt kalo da ade kau add aku eh? :)

aku nak balik smbg baca buku remember me balik (padahal da khatam 2 kali.Al Quran br khatam skali wtf) .bkn sengaja gatal tade keje...kalo aku tabaca buku nnt aku tabole tido.aku kene penatkan mata aku..aihh meleret2 plak entry ni.

baiklah selamat bersahur (aku dengki dgn org yg bole sap okok lps mkn masa sahur)

Sleepless

i had only 3 hours sleep.i woke up at 3 for some reason and cudnt get back to my sleep.i dont know what is wrong with me lately.i hardly pay attention in whatever im doing.be it on work,study or even daily routine.yesterday i almost hit a car while i was on my ipod listening to 'beautiful dreamer'.cam agak pelik ke x dgr ipod sedangkan ade je radio and cd player.aihhh...

these lately i realise, it only take me few minutes to hate ppl.aku pon tatau nape saje la aku ni nak benci org.aku ade many names on my list.balas dendam punye list.aku rase mu anger took control la.aku rase lebey baik aku stay away fm people.nnt tah ape2 saje la yg aku buat nnt.

kau rase spending money on bag that cost RM200++ is normal kan?for me its a waste.aku rase taperlu utk beli semahal tu.tp tu kan keperluan bg seorang perempuan.aku kan perempuan (cewah hahaha) klu spend on bags ataupun baju2 perempuan(im normally on tshirts n jeans.bukan psl aku simple ke ape sbb byk baju perempuan aku tak muat.hahaha aku kan gemok) aku rase mahal gile.tp cuba kasi aku duit utk spend on perfumes.RM300++ pon aku takan pk pjg utk beli..aku pelik dgn cara pemikiran aku sndiri.lg satu,wlupon aku tade duit,aku tetap gatal tgn nak beli buku.lps skali baca da letak sepah2..bukan nye baca balik ke ape..tape2 nnt pindah umah aku akan ade bilik sndiri dan im gonna have my own book shelf.

i feel weird blogging at 6 in the morning.tarase ngantuk ke ape...mungkin kerisauan aku ttg duit yg makin susut.hahaha eh aku rase bahasa melayu aku dah improve la..maybe because i start to read some Malay blogs.hmmm...i dont know what i do best.ckp bahasa melayu?aku ckp bole la...cuba suh aku buat memo ke report ke..mati aku nak buat ayat.english?few years back bole la communicate in standard english,skang ni hampeh btol.japanese?ni da cam atas2 air je..aku faham je mende jepun ckp tp cam nak reply blk tu hehehe mmg gagap la.nak list down kekurangan aku nih sgt la byk...kelebihan tu cam..separuh je.huh nape tah emo plak pagi ni...cam nak pegi mati je hahaha

da la aku nak mandi la.smpi office kang aku nak tido.mintak2 tade la mimpi bercinta dgn org2 yg tak sepatutnya hahahaha

Tagged

Tagged by N.bapak lama aku mencari semua gmbr nih...adoi..since i dont really edit pics like N(i dont own any laptop at the moment,that is) i googled these pics below.so pepandai la korang guess what are they hahaha.

1. The age you will be on your next birthday

i know i know im old T___T

2. A place you'd like to travel to

Shibuya or to be exact i would like to be in Japan...for many years already

Yeap!its bangkok

Paris!

3. Your favourite place

ni tade gmbr la...my house :)

4. Your favorite food.

All time fave. Tom yam.aku suke tomyam kat Duang Dee :)
hmmm i actually like Japanese food :)

Laksa! aku paling suka mak aku buat and the best in town kat Pasar Malam Kastam.sedap gile

aku penah ckp aku bole mkn 3 pinggan penuh nasik kan?hehe dgn singgang aku bole mkn nasik+kuah singgang shj.3 pinggan bro...my mom's singgang is the very paling sedap
Asam pedas hehe nape aku gemok?sbb dulu masa aku skola pagi mak aku slalu masak asam pedas pagi2..so aku mkn 2 pinggan at 6.30am.tq

Spaghetti Carbonara.yg ni hard to resist.the best in William

Carl's Jr's Mushroom.Besar dan lazat gile babi

Choc Fondue~ Shangri la's paling menarik tertarik da boom~

Dadih!Be jealous N..aku bole mkn ni 5 sekaligus...gila monster x aku hahaha

My fave appetizer. Kimchi :) sedap gila

J.Co donuts! tempting gile weyyy

5. Your favourite pet animal

If only i can have my own pet, i'd choose Snow Wolf :) My sister said, im weird. Fierce babeh

6. Your favourite colour combination

Black and Red. i think the combination is sexy :)

7. Your favourite piece of clothing

Tshirts and jeans..sbb tu je yg muat muahahahaha

8. Your all time current favourite song

Bella Luna by Jason Mraz.its beautiful~

9. Your favourite TV show (currently).

CSIs and Heroes. lain2 desperate housewives ke,gossip girls ke sume2 aku tasuke.

10. The first name of your significant other/crush



Sebab nnt korang tau la..a crush not supposed to be revealed

11. The town you live in.

Currently, Port Klang

Soon, Shah Alam

12. Your first job

In secret recipe...

13. Your dream job

akan tetapi.....aihhhh

Mesti korang tapercaya.aku penah bercita2 utk jd marine biologist..akan tetapi juga...result aku... T___T

a kickboxer ahahaha..im serious

14. A bad habit you have.

Spend Money.not on clothes.ntah mane2 tah aku belanjakan duit aku.aihhh

15. Your worst fear.

aku tersgt la benci/geli/menyampah/tasuke/menjauhi makhluk tuhan yg nih...aku takan pegi ke tmpt2 yg possibilities utk ada makhluk ni tinggi seperti air terjun/hutan.and sbnr nye masa aku google gmbr aku,aku menjerit 'geli geli geliiiiiiiiii'byk kali sblm aku save dlm pc aku

16. One thing you'd like to do before you die

Travel. and take my parents with me :)

Tentang lelaki

http://6ky8ngel.blogspot.com/2008/09/cerita-tentang-lelaki.html

i found a blog stated guy's behaviour.dont get me wrong but it make sense.im not against male.i dislike their attitude.melebihkan perempuan die punye kecoh.cam haram.

Dream

My daily routine
wake up at 6.45am (fasting month 5am)
take my bathe
get ready
off to go at 7am (hehehe i know i know THAT fast)

i wud normally stuck in a very loooong traffice jam from port klang to Klang and clear roads when i reach Shah Alam area.if move my ass off earlier,i wud normally reach the office at 7.30am.if i reach that early,aku akan punch card and get in the car,turn off the radio,off the engine and grab the jacket and get my 30mins sleep (i had this amnesia insomnia so i cudnt really sleep at nite).

so today,i reached the office at 7.25am.buat apa yg patut then tido..i had a very weird and yucky dream.guess what,i dreamt about me having office scandal with my director!!!EEEEWWWWWWW...geli nak mampos.he was acting very manja n aku pon dok menggatal hahahaha i dont know why suddenly kawamura's wife turned out to be some minah salleh chick.my director bought me many presents and all of sudden Fariq talk to me.hahahaha da kenape asik mimpi die...woken up by alarm clock and suddenly rase cam geli nak mampos and wanted to go back to i dont have to face the director in the office.rase cam namuntah pon ade gak hahaha

aku slalu je dpt mimpi tah ape2.mimpi yg tamasuk akal..ha mcm mimpi ni la...gile btol.some say dream might come true..but i hope it wont come true.it scares me.

edit: i accidently jolt down insomnia as amnesia(wtf?) and only realized it after sahur(its 5.25am rite now sbb smalam aku baca buku sophie kinsella 'remember me?' yg ade kene mengena dgn amnesia wtf).da kenape saje la aku ni.btw thanks N..aku baru nk betulkan kau da kasi comment.and apologized for any grammatical error in every post as my english is getting worse.blame the enviroment T_____T

Puasa yg tabrape puasa

tergugat jugak puasa aku...disebabkan marah nak mampos dr malam smalam ni kan.aku cukup tasuke kalo ade je yg nak spoil kan mood aku esp yg tahap dewa cam ptg smalam.sbb die membawak ke esokkan hari.aku benci...so aku da tala dulu rokok (gila kan pi confess kat sini.but at least aku ngaku je) but i didnt eat la..i have to restrict myself fm eating too much.even berbuka pn aku akan limitkan makanan aku...smalam aku mkn 4 dadih hahaha gile kan..murtabak aku mkn suku je...gila kurus la aku nnt hahaha

aku ni bukan la nak membangga diri ckp diri sndiri baik ke ape kan..but im sure i did not interfere in anyone's life or business.but when any prob occurs,i will be the only or 1st victim to accuse.why?sebab aku ni ta attractive(kau tacaye?pecaya la aku da experience benda ni byk kali)....and i dont talk to ppl in a manja2 way..or maybe bcz their bf/gf come to me to share their probs.i always make sure that i dont suggest them anything or even try to break the relationship.i rather listen and keep it to myself.or maybe when i need opinion,i will ask ppl and make it as a general issue.not pointing to anyone or any names.

i always tell those who come to me that i dont wanna get involve.because it backfires me. but they insist.so aku dgr je la.but when the relationship doesnt work the way they wanted it to be,i always get the blame.accuse me for being the mastermind,for the being the middle man who spreads everything BUT mane penah ckp depan2 aku.semua nak ckp blakang2.bila kau ade masalah,kau cari aku.bila time kau happy,kau penah nak igt aku???bila masalah besar dtg,kau salahkan aku.so manusia jenis ape kau nih?jgnla salahkan aku kalo kesalahan tu kau yg cari sndiri.aku tacampur hal org.kau yg dtg cari aku.aku takan cari org nak pok pek pok pek gossip psl kau.kau igt kau sape sial aku kene ckp psl kau?and kenape aku perlu amik tau hal kau?kau nabuat pe pon its ur life wat...u dont involve in my world,faham?aku rase tade sbb aku nak bercerita psl kau dan konon nye memburuk kan nama kau.kau tu je yg suka buat assumption tah pe2 psl aku mcm kau kenal aku sgt.i used to admire u for ur maturity(for maturity yea...bukan psl kau good looking ke ape) but it turned out to be the other way around.and aku bole je nabuat tatau..but smpi bila plak kau nabuat aku mcm ni?kau igt aku ni sampah recycle?kau rase kau nak kutip masukkan dlm tong kaca,plastic n etc kau angkat.bile kau rase aku ni ta bernilai,kau pijak kau ludah kawwww punya.wlupon aku ni tacantik,pendek dan gemok,aku ni manusia.jgn layan aku mcm anjing.and i dont like the evil side of me.dan aku tau aku jenis pendendam.dont make me turn to my old self.by that time u'll be sorry u ever get to know me.aku bukan ckp besar,cuma aku tasuke bila ada yg mencabar aku.dan kalo aku nak buat jahat,aku akan make sure u'll suffer.bukan benda2 remeh mcm bdk2 ni.pls la so not me!

jgn kacau idup aku kalo aku takacau kau
dan jgn nak babitkan aku dlm masalah yg kau sndiri cari
so much for showing ur maturity as an adult
aku tade mase namasuk campur hal kau
as if i got no btr things to do
i got assignments and exams coming up
and its way important than ur issues
i wud appreciate if u cud jz step out of my world and just live urs
and if u insist,i'll play ur game
but dont get shock, u dont know what i'd do to hurt

p/s: aku tau ni bulan puasa dan aku patutnya bersabar,but the accusation is way too much.and yea..i did not mention any names in this entry,so jgn nak perasan sgt im talking about.it cud be anyone.and those who betrayed me bukan sorang atau dua,RAMAI.dan aku lebih suka menjaga hati aku sndiri dr sibuk najaga hati org lain.sorry peeps,but u turned me this way.adios~

im super pissed!!!!

i ve been accused for something i didnt do

and i feel god damned fucked up rite now!!!

kau igt kau sape sial????

u claimed u were being accused for things u didnt do and u at least deserved an explaination.

so wats with the accusation towards me????

dont be so stupid and irrational

u r educated and well known in the company

so pls think wisely

jgn selamba kau je nak tuduh2 aku

if the relationship doesnt work out the way u want it to be

then try to work it out

dont put the blame on me bcz i dont have anything to do wit it

and i dont wanna know pun...

and one more thing,aku tade apa2 perasaan pun towards u.

jgn nak perasan sgt!!!

Ramadhan

finally...

i go thru my 2 days ramadhan without chronic gastric
actually ade je pedih perut yg amat
namun ku gagahi jua
hahaha tetibe aku bangga dgn diri aku sndiri
3 tahun tak puasa bai psl gastric
dan within that 3 years jugak la berat aku semakin melonjak naik
yg menyebabkan aku bulat mcm Chouji ( ala dlm cite Naruto tu la yg bole btukar jd bola)

aku juga berjaya puasa rokok
gila sangap aihh..
aku akan berpuasa lg selama 28 ari
wlupon makcik merah akan dtg aku tetap takan mkn
i need to lose weight so badly
klu x aku akan jd segemok2 umat

since morning,i ve been having my bad mood
i hate it when ppl blew my mood away early in the morning
it'll continue til late at night
or even worse,the next day

i had my mushroom chicken for break fast at secret receipe
together with milkshake oreo (so much for dieting la kan)
had 2 ciggies and smoking continues smpi masuk office
dan aku sure akan melarat2 masa drive nnt
aku pon pelik dgn diri aku
nape aku rase driving tak lengkap kalo tade rokok
dan aku tau kenapa there are ppl who had asthma never stop smoking
sbb tu mknan ruji dan juga ubat hehehe

i wanna go on a diet
i need a diet plan.
anyone?
sape ade?
no cabbage soup diet la pls
i ve seen fie is suffering from it
aku akan slalu bulat sbb bila balik umah,
mom will always cook my favs
mcm mane la aku nak kurus
ini bukan sikit2 punye fav
mmg kaw2 punye aku mkn
sekali mkn 3 pinggan penuh
kau tak nangis tgk aku mkn
aku nangis tgk diri aku sndiri T__T
even my big bro make fun of me being the biggest lil sis
mati la mati..

huh aku tetap akan diet jgk bulan ni
wlupon aku terpaksa suffer fm gastric
bagi la aku kata2 semangat weh