Haha kena marah x update blog

hahaha sabar2...aku tgh stone rokok ni.dan sehari setengah tatido nih...when im back aku akan update korang dgn mcm2 drama dlm hidup aku.tgh kumpul gmbr ni brader.kang kate blog aku bosan plak..lg2 farra ni..ade je nak complain.(eh farra ade ke kau ckp?hahaha)

queen tatum : gimme ur email address to add u in fb la..i only managed to get ur daughter la..btw she's adorable la..kasi pinjam 2-3 hari bole? :p

Selamat Hari Raya

i actually got few more post in draft.its just im too lazy to update.after raya will be posting what happen to me for the past week.accident...birthday....fucked up situation.

anyway,
i take this opportunity to wish everyone Selamat Hari Raya and Maaf Zahir dan Batin (tho i dont really know my readers except for farra and N)

- mintak maap la kalo terkasar bahasa *which is always*
- mintak maap kalo terkutuk dan tercarut
- mintak maap kalo tertulis psl korang in my entries *korang bkn tau pun haha*
- mintak maap kalo aku ni perangai nye cam hanjeng sket towards ppl around me
- mintak maap kalo aku ter..ter lalu terterus terang and termarah xtentu psl

aih byk lg la..pendek2 sudey,mintak maap la ye.kalo ade duit raya lebey tolong kasi aku :D

to Farra : aku akan tuntut duit raya ya
to N : kau dtg sini Nov kan?aku da siap2kan perut utk melantak cam ba alip ba ya
to Sis Tatum : no duit raya for me? i belum kawin la hehehe :D
to stalkers & haters : bwk2 la insap dan cuba jgn benci aku sbb tade ape yg nak dibencikan pon. and stalkers,sabar ye.aku akan update lepas raya dan kau bole baca hahaha but ntg u can find here as evidence pon.

SELAMAT HARI RAYA PEOPLE :D

Fasting Month

my close friends know i never like anything to do with coconut
be it the serunding,santan,the gulai or anything
like previous raya,my family n relatives wud go for rendang,ketupat,sate to name a few of their favs
but i'd go for nasik dagang.yummy bebeh
sbb ape?semua benda tu ada santan n kelapa la ape la
tabole blah siot

TETAPI....

hari ni..im craving for ketupat palas & kari ayam
tiba2 je...aku tapernah pun tau nama2 ketupat
and im nvr a fan of curry
except for one curry..sardine curry,prepared by my mom ONLY
okay,so me n my friend headed to SACC to look for ketupat palas
i bought jz 3 cz i know i wudnt eat much
disbbkan tiada kari ayam,i choosed rendang ayam instead
disbbkan perut aku dah pedih cam haram,aku mkn dlm kete *ye betul aku tak puasa*
rasa dia ok la..cuma mcm berlemak sgt,dan rasa kelapa sgt
ketupat palas ni rase mcm lemang eh?

dan ptg ni,makna nye at this moment
aku beli nasik,telur ikan,baby kailan dan AIR KELAPA*org buka aku pon buka la hahaha*
tgk tgk tgk..aku selalu nya akan cukup mengelak apa2 yg berkenaan dgn kelapa
today is very weird..sgt2 pelik
i hope it wont continue
because setiap kali aku mkn benda yg berasaskan kelapa aku akan muntah dgn teruk
lg satu,benda2 berasaskan kelapa ni bukan ke cpt basi?huh! aku xsuka

lps bebuka ni,at this moment jugak,
blm smpi 10min aku lps mkn aku suda muntah aihh..
betapa pepet kan?
sakit perut pulak tu
tu la lain kali xblh mkn jgn gatal nk mkn..
im off to get my ciggie break and continue with my ARMY FIGHT
im close to bring this chillin guy down

ps: Queen Tatum i still cant read ur blog.add me rucchi.ruchiano@yahoo.com
pps: im having choc festival afterwards all by myself.be jealous.heading to sunway for subway n j.co.haha im getting really fat during fasting month.

Tagged lagi

1) What is the most important thing in your life?
Most important thing?family bole masukkan x?sbb most important family la...and to respect each other.sbb aku agak allergic dgn org yg tareti nak respect org lain nih..esp the not-so-close frens..hmm

2) What is the last thing that you bought with your own money?
my own money? BVlgari Pour Homme Soir :)

3) Where do you wish to get married?
in my parents house.with family and relatives and close friends.i'd prefer a simple and memorable one.

4) How old do you think you will be permanently owned by your love?
aku tatau nak jwb la ni...

5) Are you in love?
not in love definately.i like being single.few crush maybe hahaha *ayat bajet sndiri hot*

6) Where was the last restaurant you had dinner?
break fast with yana n semah at Pizza Hut.had carbonara and island supreme pizza babe.marvellous.i love good food *this why im fat fat fat fat*

7) Name the latest book that you bought?
None recently.but the last one was 'thanks for the memories' by cecelia ahern

8)What is your full name?
fairuz binti murtadza. *i dont like it when ppl spell it wrong.fairus la,fariuz la,farus,fariz,faiz.haih mcm2 la org skrg nih*

9) Do you prefer your mother or father?
hmmm tough choice.im close with both.mom to manja with.i ask dad for opinion and to voice my dissatisfaction(not towards him tho..towards other ppl) but i prefer both

10) Name a person that you really wish to meet in real life for the first time.
it might be a lil poyo but i really wish i cud meet Nabi Muhammas S.A.W. so he guide me to be better.not that no one ever guide me la..but u get my drift :) andddd Nakata Hidetoshi and also ARASHI members and also Won Bin...*byk tape kan? ;p*

11) Christina or Britney?
I dont really fancy both.but i like some of their songs.

12) Do you do your own laundry?
Err...supposed so.but normally my sisters or mom will do that for me.cz im busy maaa hahaha

13) The most exciting place you want to go?
at this moment?a trip to Koh Samui.relaxing places.

14) Hugs or kisses?
i'd prefer hugs :)

15) Point out 5 things about the person who tagged you
Ampunnn N kalo salah
1) i never met her before but wud loooove to meet her in person :)
2) she's a degree holder. law plak tu *aku diploma pun xlepas T__T*
3) a nice person
4) she loves travelling (?) haha sbb aku byk nmpk gmbr die ke merata dunia
5) good sense of humour :)

16)8 things I am passionate about :

1) Kickboxing2)

2)Good food

3) Islands

4) Street fashion *aku suka je.i dont do street fashion tho*

5) Languages. Japanese in particular

6) Perfumes :)

7) Books

8) Family and close friends

17)8 things I say too often:

1) cam harammmm

2) gampang tau x???

3) aiyo cannot go la

4) helloooooo(bimbo type hahaha)

5) babi babi babiiiiii

6) pehal lu bro???

7) aihhh nape saje kau nih

8) *being sarcastic...*.......HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

18)4 books I’ve read recently:

1) Remember me by Sophie Kinsella

2) Thanks for the Memories by Cecelia Ahern

3) Can you keep a Secret by Sophie Kinsella

4) Be Mine by...xigt la dow

19)8 songs I could listen to over and over again

1) Bella Luna by Jason Mraz

2) Beautiful Dreamer by GLAY

3) However by GLAY

4) Aitai Kimochi by GLAY

5) Hey There Delilah by Plain White T's

6) Legend of Boo by C.Loco feat Ukiko

7) Everyday i love you less and less by Kaiser Chiefs

8) Hapus Aku by Nidji

20)8 things I learned last year:

1) That i can never please everybody

2) Not everybody like everybody

3) I should get some professional help

4) There are people who dont bother to care about other people's feelings.Ugly

5) The evil side of me is stronger than my angelic side wtf

6) I should never interfere in any of my friend's relationship no matter how sad their love stories are.

7) There are 2-face-bitch among your friends :) Be aware

8) To love myself and get rid of the low self esteem

Break Fast

berbuka dgn nonee arini..disbbkan we both mcm tade kehidupan we headed to Plaza Masalam.berborak dan kurangkan gossip.talked most about our boring lives.i had these

tempting tak?hahaha mkn nye agak sikit la kan..isap rokok yg byk..sap okok smpi rase cam nak temuntah..now back in the office doing ntg.cz im not comfortable using my dad's pc to update entries everyday.damn all of sudden blogging becoming so addictive hahaha.

yesterday,i had my mandarin test.aiyoo..i knew abt the test a week earlier tapi tu la kan...cam kwn aku kate la...kalo study tu bkn fairuz la nama nye..n i swear its not something to be proud of.aku tasuke nak study awal2.bukan nye masuk pale otak pon.so test started and i tried my best answering every question.i can understand mandarin but not reading them.same la cam japanese pon.because my effective way of studying by listening.bukan membaca.bole?haha so it was a bit confusing.sempat la pulak kan sms fie to ask about some words...aku main tibai je..adoii carry marks tinggi tu bai...30% je for final.tak menangis kau?cis..i shudve score on that paper.but its a lot easier if i go for japanese.haya said its easy for me to pass on japanese bcz its too easy.senang pon tapi cam aku rase semenjak dua menjak ni kan bhs jepon aku kan mcm da atas2 air,agak susah gak kot.but whats the point learning something u already know kan.better learn smtg new.tp on this 4th sem,aku rase pointer aku akan jatuh merundum.bcz i got this bloody business math and executive note taking yg cam babi susah.other than that, mandarin n agama.senang la sikit kot.i hope i wont repeat any paper la kan...sbb akan menyusahkan aku kalo class clash nnt.cam haram to face it.esp sem ni agak demoralise disbbkan aku tabole nak amik paper BEL.paper yg tersgt senang bole terkebelakang dr org lain kan..ni semua kepalatan 2 sem yg lps..aihhhh

ape saje la yg aku membebel ni...saje rase nak membebel.balik umah awal bukan bole buat ape pon.sahur pagi td...aku menghabiskan seperiuk nasik (aku tatipu..mmg aku yg habiskan dgn 3 kali mkn) dgn memakan drummet dan singgang shj.wahahaha memang bulat lg la aku bulan ni...hajat dihati nak kurus (kurus ke?haha)...tape la..mom's cooking mmg hard to resist la..mcm satu kerugian kalo ditolak..huh..ape la aku ckp mcm org tapenah dpt mknan ni..anyway...sape2 yg tade facebook,jom la join fb.best dow..nnt kalo da ade kau add aku eh? :)

aku nak balik smbg baca buku remember me balik (padahal da khatam 2 kali.Al Quran br khatam skali wtf) .bkn sengaja gatal tade keje...kalo aku tabaca buku nnt aku tabole tido.aku kene penatkan mata aku..aihh meleret2 plak entry ni.

baiklah selamat bersahur (aku dengki dgn org yg bole sap okok lps mkn masa sahur)

Sleepless

i had only 3 hours sleep.i woke up at 3 for some reason and cudnt get back to my sleep.i dont know what is wrong with me lately.i hardly pay attention in whatever im doing.be it on work,study or even daily routine.yesterday i almost hit a car while i was on my ipod listening to 'beautiful dreamer'.cam agak pelik ke x dgr ipod sedangkan ade je radio and cd player.aihhh...

these lately i realise, it only take me few minutes to hate ppl.aku pon tatau nape saje la aku ni nak benci org.aku ade many names on my list.balas dendam punye list.aku rase mu anger took control la.aku rase lebey baik aku stay away fm people.nnt tah ape2 saje la yg aku buat nnt.

kau rase spending money on bag that cost RM200++ is normal kan?for me its a waste.aku rase taperlu utk beli semahal tu.tp tu kan keperluan bg seorang perempuan.aku kan perempuan (cewah hahaha) klu spend on bags ataupun baju2 perempuan(im normally on tshirts n jeans.bukan psl aku simple ke ape sbb byk baju perempuan aku tak muat.hahaha aku kan gemok) aku rase mahal gile.tp cuba kasi aku duit utk spend on perfumes.RM300++ pon aku takan pk pjg utk beli..aku pelik dgn cara pemikiran aku sndiri.lg satu,wlupon aku tade duit,aku tetap gatal tgn nak beli buku.lps skali baca da letak sepah2..bukan nye baca balik ke ape..tape2 nnt pindah umah aku akan ade bilik sndiri dan im gonna have my own book shelf.

i feel weird blogging at 6 in the morning.tarase ngantuk ke ape...mungkin kerisauan aku ttg duit yg makin susut.hahaha eh aku rase bahasa melayu aku dah improve la..maybe because i start to read some Malay blogs.hmmm...i dont know what i do best.ckp bahasa melayu?aku ckp bole la...cuba suh aku buat memo ke report ke..mati aku nak buat ayat.english?few years back bole la communicate in standard english,skang ni hampeh btol.japanese?ni da cam atas2 air je..aku faham je mende jepun ckp tp cam nak reply blk tu hehehe mmg gagap la.nak list down kekurangan aku nih sgt la byk...kelebihan tu cam..separuh je.huh nape tah emo plak pagi ni...cam nak pegi mati je hahaha

da la aku nak mandi la.smpi office kang aku nak tido.mintak2 tade la mimpi bercinta dgn org2 yg tak sepatutnya hahahaha

Tagged

Tagged by N.bapak lama aku mencari semua gmbr nih...adoi..since i dont really edit pics like N(i dont own any laptop at the moment,that is) i googled these pics below.so pepandai la korang guess what are they hahaha.

1. The age you will be on your next birthday

i know i know im old T___T

2. A place you'd like to travel to

Shibuya or to be exact i would like to be in Japan...for many years already

Yeap!its bangkok

Paris!

3. Your favourite place

ni tade gmbr la...my house :)

4. Your favorite food.

All time fave. Tom yam.aku suke tomyam kat Duang Dee :)
hmmm i actually like Japanese food :)

Laksa! aku paling suka mak aku buat and the best in town kat Pasar Malam Kastam.sedap gile

aku penah ckp aku bole mkn 3 pinggan penuh nasik kan?hehe dgn singgang aku bole mkn nasik+kuah singgang shj.3 pinggan bro...my mom's singgang is the very paling sedap
Asam pedas hehe nape aku gemok?sbb dulu masa aku skola pagi mak aku slalu masak asam pedas pagi2..so aku mkn 2 pinggan at 6.30am.tq

Spaghetti Carbonara.yg ni hard to resist.the best in William

Carl's Jr's Mushroom.Besar dan lazat gile babi

Choc Fondue~ Shangri la's paling menarik tertarik da boom~

Dadih!Be jealous N..aku bole mkn ni 5 sekaligus...gila monster x aku hahaha

My fave appetizer. Kimchi :) sedap gila

J.Co donuts! tempting gile weyyy

5. Your favourite pet animal

If only i can have my own pet, i'd choose Snow Wolf :) My sister said, im weird. Fierce babeh

6. Your favourite colour combination

Black and Red. i think the combination is sexy :)

7. Your favourite piece of clothing

Tshirts and jeans..sbb tu je yg muat muahahahaha

8. Your all time current favourite song

Bella Luna by Jason Mraz.its beautiful~

9. Your favourite TV show (currently).

CSIs and Heroes. lain2 desperate housewives ke,gossip girls ke sume2 aku tasuke.

10. The first name of your significant other/crush



Sebab nnt korang tau la..a crush not supposed to be revealed

11. The town you live in.

Currently, Port Klang

Soon, Shah Alam

12. Your first job

In secret recipe...

13. Your dream job

akan tetapi.....aihhhh

Mesti korang tapercaya.aku penah bercita2 utk jd marine biologist..akan tetapi juga...result aku... T___T

a kickboxer ahahaha..im serious

14. A bad habit you have.

Spend Money.not on clothes.ntah mane2 tah aku belanjakan duit aku.aihhh

15. Your worst fear.

aku tersgt la benci/geli/menyampah/tasuke/menjauhi makhluk tuhan yg nih...aku takan pegi ke tmpt2 yg possibilities utk ada makhluk ni tinggi seperti air terjun/hutan.and sbnr nye masa aku google gmbr aku,aku menjerit 'geli geli geliiiiiiiiii'byk kali sblm aku save dlm pc aku

16. One thing you'd like to do before you die

Travel. and take my parents with me :)

Tentang lelaki

http://6ky8ngel.blogspot.com/2008/09/cerita-tentang-lelaki.html

i found a blog stated guy's behaviour.dont get me wrong but it make sense.im not against male.i dislike their attitude.melebihkan perempuan die punye kecoh.cam haram.

Dream

My daily routine
wake up at 6.45am (fasting month 5am)
take my bathe
get ready
off to go at 7am (hehehe i know i know THAT fast)

i wud normally stuck in a very loooong traffice jam from port klang to Klang and clear roads when i reach Shah Alam area.if move my ass off earlier,i wud normally reach the office at 7.30am.if i reach that early,aku akan punch card and get in the car,turn off the radio,off the engine and grab the jacket and get my 30mins sleep (i had this amnesia insomnia so i cudnt really sleep at nite).

so today,i reached the office at 7.25am.buat apa yg patut then tido..i had a very weird and yucky dream.guess what,i dreamt about me having office scandal with my director!!!EEEEWWWWWWW...geli nak mampos.he was acting very manja n aku pon dok menggatal hahahaha i dont know why suddenly kawamura's wife turned out to be some minah salleh chick.my director bought me many presents and all of sudden Fariq talk to me.hahahaha da kenape asik mimpi die...woken up by alarm clock and suddenly rase cam geli nak mampos and wanted to go back to i dont have to face the director in the office.rase cam namuntah pon ade gak hahaha

aku slalu je dpt mimpi tah ape2.mimpi yg tamasuk akal..ha mcm mimpi ni la...gile btol.some say dream might come true..but i hope it wont come true.it scares me.

edit: i accidently jolt down insomnia as amnesia(wtf?) and only realized it after sahur(its 5.25am rite now sbb smalam aku baca buku sophie kinsella 'remember me?' yg ade kene mengena dgn amnesia wtf).da kenape saje la aku ni.btw thanks N..aku baru nk betulkan kau da kasi comment.and apologized for any grammatical error in every post as my english is getting worse.blame the enviroment T_____T

Puasa yg tabrape puasa

tergugat jugak puasa aku...disebabkan marah nak mampos dr malam smalam ni kan.aku cukup tasuke kalo ade je yg nak spoil kan mood aku esp yg tahap dewa cam ptg smalam.sbb die membawak ke esokkan hari.aku benci...so aku da tala dulu rokok (gila kan pi confess kat sini.but at least aku ngaku je) but i didnt eat la..i have to restrict myself fm eating too much.even berbuka pn aku akan limitkan makanan aku...smalam aku mkn 4 dadih hahaha gile kan..murtabak aku mkn suku je...gila kurus la aku nnt hahaha

aku ni bukan la nak membangga diri ckp diri sndiri baik ke ape kan..but im sure i did not interfere in anyone's life or business.but when any prob occurs,i will be the only or 1st victim to accuse.why?sebab aku ni ta attractive(kau tacaye?pecaya la aku da experience benda ni byk kali)....and i dont talk to ppl in a manja2 way..or maybe bcz their bf/gf come to me to share their probs.i always make sure that i dont suggest them anything or even try to break the relationship.i rather listen and keep it to myself.or maybe when i need opinion,i will ask ppl and make it as a general issue.not pointing to anyone or any names.

i always tell those who come to me that i dont wanna get involve.because it backfires me. but they insist.so aku dgr je la.but when the relationship doesnt work the way they wanted it to be,i always get the blame.accuse me for being the mastermind,for the being the middle man who spreads everything BUT mane penah ckp depan2 aku.semua nak ckp blakang2.bila kau ade masalah,kau cari aku.bila time kau happy,kau penah nak igt aku???bila masalah besar dtg,kau salahkan aku.so manusia jenis ape kau nih?jgnla salahkan aku kalo kesalahan tu kau yg cari sndiri.aku tacampur hal org.kau yg dtg cari aku.aku takan cari org nak pok pek pok pek gossip psl kau.kau igt kau sape sial aku kene ckp psl kau?and kenape aku perlu amik tau hal kau?kau nabuat pe pon its ur life wat...u dont involve in my world,faham?aku rase tade sbb aku nak bercerita psl kau dan konon nye memburuk kan nama kau.kau tu je yg suka buat assumption tah pe2 psl aku mcm kau kenal aku sgt.i used to admire u for ur maturity(for maturity yea...bukan psl kau good looking ke ape) but it turned out to be the other way around.and aku bole je nabuat tatau..but smpi bila plak kau nabuat aku mcm ni?kau igt aku ni sampah recycle?kau rase kau nak kutip masukkan dlm tong kaca,plastic n etc kau angkat.bile kau rase aku ni ta bernilai,kau pijak kau ludah kawwww punya.wlupon aku ni tacantik,pendek dan gemok,aku ni manusia.jgn layan aku mcm anjing.and i dont like the evil side of me.dan aku tau aku jenis pendendam.dont make me turn to my old self.by that time u'll be sorry u ever get to know me.aku bukan ckp besar,cuma aku tasuke bila ada yg mencabar aku.dan kalo aku nak buat jahat,aku akan make sure u'll suffer.bukan benda2 remeh mcm bdk2 ni.pls la so not me!

jgn kacau idup aku kalo aku takacau kau
dan jgn nak babitkan aku dlm masalah yg kau sndiri cari
so much for showing ur maturity as an adult
aku tade mase namasuk campur hal kau
as if i got no btr things to do
i got assignments and exams coming up
and its way important than ur issues
i wud appreciate if u cud jz step out of my world and just live urs
and if u insist,i'll play ur game
but dont get shock, u dont know what i'd do to hurt

p/s: aku tau ni bulan puasa dan aku patutnya bersabar,but the accusation is way too much.and yea..i did not mention any names in this entry,so jgn nak perasan sgt im talking about.it cud be anyone.and those who betrayed me bukan sorang atau dua,RAMAI.dan aku lebih suka menjaga hati aku sndiri dr sibuk najaga hati org lain.sorry peeps,but u turned me this way.adios~

im super pissed!!!!

i ve been accused for something i didnt do

and i feel god damned fucked up rite now!!!

kau igt kau sape sial????

u claimed u were being accused for things u didnt do and u at least deserved an explaination.

so wats with the accusation towards me????

dont be so stupid and irrational

u r educated and well known in the company

so pls think wisely

jgn selamba kau je nak tuduh2 aku

if the relationship doesnt work out the way u want it to be

then try to work it out

dont put the blame on me bcz i dont have anything to do wit it

and i dont wanna know pun...

and one more thing,aku tade apa2 perasaan pun towards u.

jgn nak perasan sgt!!!

Ramadhan

finally...

i go thru my 2 days ramadhan without chronic gastric
actually ade je pedih perut yg amat
namun ku gagahi jua
hahaha tetibe aku bangga dgn diri aku sndiri
3 tahun tak puasa bai psl gastric
dan within that 3 years jugak la berat aku semakin melonjak naik
yg menyebabkan aku bulat mcm Chouji ( ala dlm cite Naruto tu la yg bole btukar jd bola)

aku juga berjaya puasa rokok
gila sangap aihh..
aku akan berpuasa lg selama 28 ari
wlupon makcik merah akan dtg aku tetap takan mkn
i need to lose weight so badly
klu x aku akan jd segemok2 umat

since morning,i ve been having my bad mood
i hate it when ppl blew my mood away early in the morning
it'll continue til late at night
or even worse,the next day

i had my mushroom chicken for break fast at secret receipe
together with milkshake oreo (so much for dieting la kan)
had 2 ciggies and smoking continues smpi masuk office
dan aku sure akan melarat2 masa drive nnt
aku pon pelik dgn diri aku
nape aku rase driving tak lengkap kalo tade rokok
dan aku tau kenapa there are ppl who had asthma never stop smoking
sbb tu mknan ruji dan juga ubat hehehe

i wanna go on a diet
i need a diet plan.
anyone?
sape ade?
no cabbage soup diet la pls
i ve seen fie is suffering from it
aku akan slalu bulat sbb bila balik umah,
mom will always cook my favs
mcm mane la aku nak kurus
ini bukan sikit2 punye fav
mmg kaw2 punye aku mkn
sekali mkn 3 pinggan penuh
kau tak nangis tgk aku mkn
aku nangis tgk diri aku sndiri T__T
even my big bro make fun of me being the biggest lil sis
mati la mati..

huh aku tetap akan diet jgk bulan ni
wlupon aku terpaksa suffer fm gastric
bagi la aku kata2 semangat weh

Heaven

i just finish a regular tab of raspberry & choc estacy from New Zealand Natural

heaven~

i got to meet Ryan again..the whole.was fun was tiring and he is one little cheeky and cute kid.
aih~
tetiba cam rase nak ade anak hahaha tanpa kawin...bole?hahaha

tomororow da start puasa
so aku da beli J.co arini mkn puas2
actually since my lil bro is going back to Kedah n was craving for j.co i bought him some and took home the rest of it.i dont really eat J.co that much anymore cz i ll end up puking the whole thing back.membazir tak sudah.currently in the office,planning to go Funa to be a slave on Japanese food.damn!!nape semua yg aku suka mahal ah?

i rindu die lagi la arini :(
it was supposed to be a good thing.No?

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People often label me as a negative thinker
Why?
Because i am aware of any judgment/betrayal when im being negative compare than when im positive.so aku lebey suka jd negative.wlupon dulu aku pernah menjadi seorang positive thinker.

People often tell me that i am a very bad tempered person
Why?
Because kalau aku tunjuk perangai lemah lembut aku(wlupon tabrape lembut), org akan pijak kepala!!

People always see me as the bad guy
Why?
Sebab perangai aku yang selalu tolong orang bila susah.dan bila aku dah tolong,kalau jadi lg masalah, aku selalu akan dipersalahkan.wlupon bukan aku yg salah. konon nye sebab aku campur tgn.tp bukan diorg ke yg drag aku dlm masalah tu? tu semua dr org2 yang ego melangit dan tapernah nak mengaku salah.org2 mcm tu semua aku dah palang.

dan sekarang aku lebih selesa mengamalkan dasar tidak campur tangan
wlupon dipaksa,wlupun dipujuk
kalaupun terpaksa utk comment sesuatu,aku akan comment secara general.
im not on any sides.
aku lebih suka org menggangap aku tabrape wujud
dan aku pon tasuke utk terlalu rapat dgn sape2
easier that way
no one gets hurt atau pun terase hati kan?

aku dah penat jaga hati org
aku dah penat jadi baik
sekarang ni..aku dah mls nak peduli.

terima kasih.

Manusia

aku jijik tgk manusia yg berpura2 baik tapi hati syaitan
aku jijik tgk manusia yg berpura2 menjaga hati tapi sbnrnya tikam dr blakang
aku jijik tgk manusia yg mendabik dada bersuara lantang tapi sbnrnya kosong
aku jijik tgk manusia yg ckp tak serupa bikin
aku lagi jijik dengan manusia yg tak penah kotakn janji.

kesimpulan nya..aku jijik dengan perangai manusia,
terutama nya kau!!!
dan termasuk aku sendiri
sedih kan hidup aku

i miss him so bad :(

Private

Peeps,

those who wanted to read my fabulous blog(ceeewah) pls do leave ur emaill address to be added to my invited list

im going to private this blog as this it is not so private anymore
it turns out to be a public blog instead

tade yg penting utk dibaca pon
dan tade yg menarik utk diketawakan
so think twice

Mood Swing

i was supposed to participate in Amazing Race yesterday
BUT..because of this one selfish bastard we have to cancelled it
to me, last minute cancellation is a total potong la
he ditched us for 8K's snooker competition just a day before the event
selfish nak mampos!
i was ready to take the challenge even it was by force
since me n wani are the only girl representing out warehouse
mula2 paksa masuk..pastu kau yg tarik diri
bodoh betol...aku benci org selfish mcm ni tau tak...

Had a night out with Haya on Saturday night for a movie
Watched 'You Dont Mess With The Zohan'
i wonder why the movie is rated U
it shudnt be rated U la dammit
i read some reviews and heard from friends it is a 18SX kinda movie
that is why i asked haya if we were in the right cinema
BECAUSE there were many kids inside
and i bet their parents must be feelin bad about taking their kids there
but the movie was hilarious
with Adam Sandler as the main character
but in some way,it is insulting.
dont ask me in what way.
if u have watched it,u'll realize.

well hello stalker :)
u know who u are...
i located ur IP babe
oh i feel famous~ wtf
u wont find anything here
feel free to read my entries
there were some about u too *wink*
let me know if u wanted to be my loyal reader
because soon,im going to private this blog
only some people are allowed to read it
and to backstabbers,
u know who u r too
feel free to use any facts in here to bring me down
wtf i really feel famous
and i dont understand why people backstabb me or even stalk me
im not rich or pretty wtf
im fat and short la dey
stay away la..
gile punye org

An Award

“ANDA HENDAKLAH MENYEDIAKAN SATU UCAPAN BERANGAN”

It has been done according to the following rules:

1. The winner may put the logo on her blog.

2. Put a link to the person you got the award from.

3. Nominate 5 blogs.

4. Put links to the blogs.
5. Leave a message for your nominees

alrite here we go

~i would like to thank N for giving me this award.without this award i wudnt know there are actually some people who appreciate me in this blogsphere *lift up trophy* and thank u farra for being the utmost bitchy reader to critic every entry i posted *bow berkali2*.and finally thank u to stalkers,backstabbers and haters for reading this blog and know how i actually feel about u.moga2 kau sedar diri sikit (tp kalo blm sedar aku akan post nama pulak kat sini) *flying kiss* dan terakhir skali, dont worry readers,i wont change the way i write.ITS MY BLOG.DEAL WITH IT,BITCH!'

Sekian

In the mood

im sooo in the mood to enjoy myself
to get really wasted
hahaha
was thinking to proceed with the plan to cameron and get me relax there

a friend of mine told me not to be someone im not
told me i dont have to do some not-me thing to enjoy myself
the thing is how many of my friend,know the real me?
know who i was in the past
some might think i was what i am today
some might think i was so angelic..well the fact that im wearing tudung la kan
not that im proud of my past
there s nothing to be proud abt pun
i admit i was stupid n wrong back then
if i have to list down the wrongdoings it wud be very embarassing
but sometimes i miss being the old fairuz
the one who really dont gives a fuck
the one who were determined
the one who were cold hearted.

i have to admit that since im working in TLS
i became more soft hearted
i became so weak
became the sensitive one
became the one who cries easily
its a shame
because i dont find crying is a normal thing

dropped Janda Baik's plan
and have fun in Cameron, MY WAY hehe
da lama x buat benda mengarut
since 2 weeks ago,the eagerness to be the old me has arrived
i think its time to have it all my way
cz im tired of being the one who cares abt other people but myself
bukan nye ade sape nak appreciate pun
let alone saying thank u ke ape
not that im expecting it pun
but at least appreciate la
not backstab me

tu la manusia
tak penah puas
tak penah berterima kasih
tak penah igt masa susah
bila senang semua lupa
manusia ni hodoh kan? :)

tested
im officially an obese T_______________________________________T
mati la aku gemok

stakat nak emo tak tentu pasal bole pegi mampos!

mls aku nak layan org emo skrg ni
lg2 yg tak tentu psl emo
semua dah besar
pandai guna kepala otak sndiri

so pegi mampos!

some say girls are living in denial most of their time in life.
i second that
dan aku ade la dgr jugak,buaya2 ni ckp pompuan senang kene tipu
sbb akal x panjang
yeke?mungkin la kot
tp cam haram la jugak kan dgr many bad things about girls
of course from those who doesnt have respects for us girls

why do people make promises when they know they couldnt/wont keep it?
tapernah rase bersalah ke ape?
dont u ever feel guilty for betraying someone's trust?
tonight,after many months,im here to announce
that i dont believe in promises anymore.
no matter how much i try to deny
eventually i realize that promises are meant to be broken.

dont u think so?

aku rase promises are stupid
it fools people like me
aih...cam haram je aku rase skang ni

feels like giving up
feels like quitting my study...and my work.

ni semua kau punye psl la mr so-called macho
nyampah aku tgk muka kau hari2

Last Night

yesterday,
started my morning with bad mood.nak marah je..tatau mende nak marah pon..tp saje nak marah.i had only 45mins sleep the other night.and usually i will take my nap during lunch hour.since its friday,lunch hour starts at 12.45 and ends at 2.30pm.i decided to take my nap.i was damn tired and goten wuzzy the whole morning.i brought in my pillow(yes,i do have a pillow in the office),trying to get my rest in meeting room's cushion.i wud normally get sleepy after 15-20mins but yday i cudnt close my eyes and obviously cudnt sleep.so i called Yana who phoned asking me to go for lunch with her earlier,asking her where was she and i drove there.buat muka sememeh xcukup tido joined them.had my sup ayam set.aku tatau sup tu rase ape..main mkn je.mood mmg tade lnsg...that is why i hate it when something/someone blow my very good mood away.bad mood bole smpi mlm tau x?benci btol aku

we had our retreat dinner for annual dinner committe in Planet Hollywood at 8.so convoy la ramai2 from sa1g.ade la manusia yg bijak pandai ni...yana suh ikut smart tunnel to avoid the traffic jam(kau tau la jam kat kl camne kan..cam haram) but....sbb ego die yg melampau cam kimak tu kate nak ikut NPE.(sbnrnye aku pon tatau ade highway ni hehehe) and said there will be no jams...smpi je sana ha kau...jam panjang gile babi plak tu...bile suruh ikut smart tanak...konon nye nnt jam kat federal la ape la..tatau tu ckp la tatau...ego nape tah..pelik aku org ego x bertempat camnih..masuk BB congested mcm biasa la kan...tah nape tah org bijak tu bwk pusing2 jalan mane2 tah..so we decided not to follow them.smpi la kami ke planet..then mcm biasa la...org yg suka layan jam tu mmg buat muka x bersalah la kan..

had our dinner.start with salad then not-so main course.quite full and then layan live band..there was a bday party for some teenager kat situ la...we were behind.then abis je around 10.30pm meja sume alih then da start la mlm setan.but i cudnt be so setan la kan..since aku membwk imej perempuan muslimah mlm tu...gile kau ramai ade kat situ..bebdk tls plak tu...kekok la nak sap okok la ape tu sume...but then after a while sikit2 la berambus dr sana.so the girls yana wani nonee tu da start menari bagai...aku ni duduk je la..lama da x jadi setan.tetibe cam rindu plak ngan zaman2 rawngs perform dulu kan...when i was close with cj n pee.rindu dow...

i had fun last night.it put my mind off everything that burden me for a while.i havent laugh so hard for quite many months already huh...so yeah it was fun.budak2 ni sume cam agak pantang nmpk camera la kan...kepala senget sana sini hahaha lps tu nonee cam biasa la dpt je business card org and wani kene ngorat ngan budak2 xbrape cukup umo hahahah mintak no tepon sume la haha...maybe i shud go out more often.maybe i shudnt work so hard to impress anyone anymore ey..since no one is going to appreciate anyway.

aku rindu die gile babi.
aku pon tatau nape.
the more i try to get rid of him
the more i miss him
especially his laugh
ngan manja dia la kan hahaha
rindu kau la dow

Once again

i had a sleepless night
a very cold night
after a big fight
woken up by asthma attack
ni mesti psl isap rokok lebih2 smalam

i need him out of my life.right now.

Bvlgari

Finally...
after few months...
he s my new baby
muahaahahahahah

thanks Haya for ur company!
Good luck on ur new job :)
let me know if u can drag me to that 90% offer ya haha

im still down with fever and cough
tp sap okok jugak

2 MCs
asthma attack,fever,flu and the very bad batuk.
missed out 3 classes
missed out 1 quiz, 1 test
im a terrible person for wasting my own money T__T
oh and also my parents money

i got bad headache for many days already
if this continue for few days,
i think most likely to get a brain cancer wtf
its killing me la
xblh kene panas la,ape la

i need my vacation,so bad T__T

will be going to Janda baik for HPD outing
i got invited
close friends will be going
but i also wana go to Cameron with fie n phynie
aihh tough choice

Getaway

i need a gateaway
even if its just for awhile
i want to dissapear
i dont wanna see anyone i know
at this moment,at least
i seriously need to get my butt out of this town,work and study
im too tired to go thru this

i want it to end.right now.

Blogger

i read a blog.i find a similarity between that blogger and me.i love her poetry.i feel her sadness,because i was once feel exactly the same.now, she's happy with her new love,getting married early next year while im still on the very same spot.not moving a step forward.how pathetic.

i wanna get rid of u.fast.its eating me inside out.
bloody motherfucker!

Ba Alif Ba Ya x80

im pissed!!!

aku sgt2 xpaham nape ade je yg nakasi aku marah time mood aku baik.tak senang tgk aku happy ke ape tah..

every word comes out from ur mouth in the past, or present sgt2 menyakitkan ati aku la kimak.u r such a bastard.

im reading a book titled 'thanks for the memories' by cecilia ahern.its very interesting.not really a lovey dovey type of read.a women,who lost her baby and deeply sad about it,not having a happy marriage,divorce later on.so when she lost a lot of blood due to miscarriage,she receive blood from a donor(justin hitchcock) and amazingly she know many things she never bother to care or know (latin and few languages,some historical thing,dream abt a gal who turns out to be his daughter).

and now im wondering if this thing really happen in real life?i mean if u donate ur blood,is there any possibility that you cud actually feel the same way as the donor?or feel the chemistry at least?

sape bole jwb?

i miss u really.
but i know u've changed.
for the worse.

Lets be a survey biatch!

A- [A]vailable?
- totally

B- [B]irthday?
- sept 26th

C- [C]herrys?
- i dont like cherry.

D- [D]rink you had last?
- plenty of mineral water

E- [E]asiest person to talk to?
- my sisters

F- [F]avorite color(s)?
- black

G- [G]ummy bears or gummy worms?
- i like both

H-[H]ome town?
- pahang

I- [I]ce cream?
- anything with berries

J- [J]ust something you always say on IM?
- pepet

K- [K]illed someone?
- wanted to but i know i dont have any right to take anyone's life

L- [L]imeaid or lemonade?
- none

M- [M]oney or love?
- money.money can buy love

N- [N]umber of siblings?
- 5

O- [O]ne wish?
- to have more money so i cud make my dreams come true

P-[P]lay an instrument?
- tade

Q- [Q]uiet?
- im not that quiet.but i can be.

R- [R]eason you smile?
- kdg2 tade ape pon tersenyum sorang2..but i guess sweet memories la..and good jokes

S- [S]ong you last heard?
- 11 Januari by Gigi

T- [T]ime you woke up today?
- exactly 6.45am every morning

U- [U] like someone right now?
- yes i do.for 2+ years already

V- [V]egetables?
- im very picky when it comes to food.i dont eat certain veges

W- [W]orst habit?
- i have this one habit that i hardly get rid of it.cz im really good at it.

Y- [Y]ellow a good color?
- not really

Z- [Z]odiac?
- libra